Thursday, September 24

happy birthday son

My dear Kannu

 

It was so nice to speak to you so many times yesterday and see you cutting the cake and and and. I am missing you so much! L I posted this on FB yesterday with the photos

 

Its Eldest Cost Centre's birthday today. The photo is when we brought him home the next day. 25 years old now. I was younger than him when I had him.

Before he was born, I was a young lion, striding the world, not giving a shit about anything and having fun.

And then, the moment the nurse gave him to me to hold him, I experienced terror. Sheer unadulterated terror and fear.

For the first time in my life, I knew that I now have somebody for whom I am responsible for. I knew for the first time that from that moment on, a large part of my heart and mind will be existing outside my body, vulnerable and I will not be able to protect him fully.

Has the terror reduced? no. still worry about that little shit. Despite him having grown up to be a man - still worry about him. It has been amazing how dusty the room became when he was born, when he left for his first school trip, when he left for uni and when he got a first from Oxford. That's it, no more crying and throat choking up. Well, for now. Meh. Becoming soppy in my old age. And for the first time, wouldn't be there for his birthday. All credit of course goes to

Sangeeta Bhargava

for raising him. I was vaguely aware of a short person in the house.

The best way I can describe him is how I describe my father

Rabi Dasgupta

. He is a good man and he is a kind man.

Happy Birthday son. Love you.

 

I am so happy to see you become a man that any father will give his left arm and right eye to have as a son. Thank you son. And imagine that now I am thinking about your kids and how we can help (if needed, we would love to help of course!, I miss having kids around me) with baby sitting and other things. Can you send a photo of your living room now that it’s been setup?

 

Where do you work when you are at your flat? On the dining table? Do get a good ergonomic chair, beta, you don’t want to bugger up your back, best to invest in a good chair with lumbar support. I had a bad bad time when I worked for ABN 20 years back and had crap chairs. And that screwed up my back now.

 

I will leave you with a quote, “The experiences that matter are often the ones we never wanted to do, not the ones we decide to do” by Alberto Moravia. I found this quite interesting. And then we pay so much to get experiences which sometimes don’t matter that much. That said, our holidays have been good. Cant wait to go for one with you all

 

Love you

 

Baba

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